1 I still miss you, yknow. I was hoping you sent me a message.

2 I need comfort. Fuck, I hate panic attacks.

3 Why do people do stupid things then realize it’s wrong a second after they’ve done it? I just don’t understand.

4 Sleep early tonight. Good luck on your first day tomorrow.

5 I miss your voice. And your stories. How was your first day?

6 I hope you found someone there. A friend, a companion, a possible soulmate, just someone. I have no one.

7 I forgot your birthday once again. Oh well, it’s not like I’m there to celebrate it with you.

8 You never loved me, did you? The real love kind.

9 I’m starting to forget about things about us. To get used with life without you. It doesn’t hurt as much anymore. I’m not sure I like this. I want the past back - us back.

10 I hope you catch me because I’m already falling - I swear my music library is trying to torture me.

11 I want to talk to you. No malice, no intention - just friends. How can I do that?

12 Where did I go wrong? How did I manage to fuck everything up all at the same time? Shit.

13 It makes me mad that we don’t talk anymore. And I’m still hung up on you. Except I don’t think I am. Fuck, I’m a mess.

- unread messages for you
escafeism

pancakesandmeth:

Second giveaway on my blog! This giveaway is not associated with tumblr at all.

Products

  • 25$ Forever 21 card
  • John Green books(again lol)
  • Iphone 5S, (White, 16gb)
  • Two vans, women size(8)
  • Galaxy S3,(16gb with 2gb sd card)

RULES!

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  2. REBLOG and LIKE this post to enter.

We will be shipping international. 

ONE person will receive all this :). CONTEST WILL END ON AUGUST 31TH ON 12AM(eastern time) AND WINNER WILL BE ANNOUNCED ON SEPT 1 at 6pm (eastern time)

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Source:pancakesandmethorphanedlove
but darling,
i planned out this day
for you
and i always thought i could make it
perfect;
just for you, i’d do anything
even though i’m not there with you
i’ll sort everything out
and leave you with the sweetest surprise
and make you make the sweetest smile
but suddenly things went awry
and i gave you the hardest goodbye
- my birthday gift for you
escafeism

Words at Brooklyn Bridge

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This is a quick no-clothing haul I did in the city so far. They’re quite a lot for me and I’m trying hard to limit myself into buying more. Help!

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Critter Owl 3-Subject Notebook, $8.95 

This is really really adorable! When I first saw it at Barnes&Nobles, I know I have to get it. Plus points since it’s a multi-subject notebook, something I’ve been wanting to get for so long. It has 240 thick and smooth pages and dividers with pockets. It’s really practical and ugh, the owl just gets me.

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KaBam Dot 1-Subject Notebook, $6.95

I couldn’t find another 3-Subject with a different design so I purchased this one instead. It has a nice pop art cover and it contains 200 pages. I can either make a divider for this or use it for a major subject that requires a lot of note-taking.

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New York University 4-Subject Notebook, $6.99

Uh, dream school. My siblings went here for college and I have always wanted to attend classes here too. For the mean time though, I got their purple notebook (it’s not really obvious in the photo but it’s a deep royal purple color and it looks perfect) which has 4 double pockets and 200 pages as well. 

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N.Y.C Taxi iPhone Case, $10

I got this at a street vendor at Wall Street. I was having second thoughts on buying this because it looked so touristy but since I cracked my (new) case, I had to get a new one.

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Ear Cuffs, $7.50ea

I’ve been longing to buy ear cuffs for the longest time now (I don’t have the heart to get my ears pierced again) and when I went to Claire’s at Alabang, they told me they didn’t sell cuffs. It’s on a buy-two-get-one promo as well so I totally had to get these!

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Ear Cuffs & Ring Set, $8.50ea

I’m also obsessed with rings at the moment. They’re my go-to accessory since I’m not fond of bracelets and necklaces. I admit I have no idea what my ring size is so when I tried the rings on, they’re sooo big! It slides off in every finger but fortunately, I can still use it as a thumb ring.

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Lancôme BB Cream, $45

I’ve been telling my mom to start using BB creams so when I bought her one, I thought why not get one for myself as well? Especially when the saleslady tried it on me (ugh, Saks salespeople certainly have the gift of gab), I just need it. It has SPF 30, antioxidants and vitamins which would be really good for my messed-up skin.

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Sunset Beach Candle, $12

This three-wick candle from Bath and Body Works is originally $22.50 but they had a one-day sale for this. I don’t know of any brand that’s as good as BBW so this is a must-have. It smells a lot like the Champagne Toast candle I have back home although this is more calm and sweet.

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Eucalyptus Mint & Autumn Mums Candles, 2 for $20 

Mason jars. Scented candles. Need I say more?

PS, watch out for a haul post from Macy’s, Bloomingdale’s and Saks Fifth soon!

I still cry, about everything - you, me and us. Sometimes, when I look back at the time we spent together, I’m convinced I did the right thing. We weren’t really meant to be together from the start. We were so different and we both knew we didn’t click. There was no spark. But why does being apart from you feel so wrong?
escafeism
As I'm reading that little inscription in your page I can't helped but feel slightly amused and relieved. For I too, share such predicament. I, too fall in love shamelessly in words and get carried away too many times. It's a lovely thought that I get to share that with lovely strangers like you. And at the same time, I bit lonely, because we tend to hurt more intensely because we are ingrained to every word or act, someone would say or do to us. It never leaves us, like books we love.

Ugh, this is so beautiful. Eternally grateful for this <3